1. The night you left I changed my sheets,
in some effort to remove you
from the place where I sleep,
but I cried into the dirty pillow case
like I could mingle us
through our remaining molecules.
You still seeped into my dreams
for three hours
until I had to get up.
You asked,
Why did I never meet your parents?
And I told you I never thought
you'd want to see the tangled
roots
that I keep shooting into the earth,
trying to find a clump of dirt
to stick in.
So you sighed while my eyes swelled
and told me that I was loved.
I thought, "Habibi" and "Sister"
"teacher," "Gifted"
and "Beautiful" and how I cherish those words
1. I like this
january chill that
bites into my flesh
like I bit into yours,
trying to tear my way through
your clavical to the base
of your spine
where you kept that pearl.
If I swallowed it,
I think I'd know eternity.
2. When we walked to the center
of the circle in the square
I felt the ice give beneath us.
Now, upside down,
the sky is doing the same.
3. I flip through my calendar backwards,
wishing I could live that way.
I would build from this frost bitten morning
to the warm way you first held
my hand.
4. I took down my Christmas lights.
5. I met Jesus on the sidewalk today,
preaching "Why do you worry."
He as
Here is the feeling of
shredding blank canvas with bare hands
before I may lift the clumsy brush.
I abhor Van Gogh for his sunflowers.
More, I despise sunflowers for their brazen yellowness.
I am exhausted,
cut by words
which strip me naked.
Sparrow heart recoils;
I have learnt I have no wings.
Leave me, heavy like lead.
I, too, will decompose and compress into inevitable Past.
["A pretty a day, and Every fades".]
Let me yell from the scaffold.
I will wear no scarlet letter!
Goodman's wife, breathe relief.
I write Anger,
for and because of,
with no meter nor rhyme nor cohesiveness.
Stream of conscious nonsens
Golden Idaho rippled before me,
chasing itself to
chastity.
[Make an example, lonely,
of the husks of homes
devoid of emptier people,
who toiled so long
only to be turned
away.]
Road sign says,
"This Way to Eden".
Follow it. Be Fruitful.
Multiply (insecurities).
Paradise: always just around the bend
(of a smile I will not be so fool as to crave).
God [Haha! Son and Flesh and Heart of Man]
cast me away,
chaste and chastened
to watch the golden glory
unwind lonely
ever just beyond my
fingertips.
I screamed
HOLY
in the temple
and God wrote "Be still".
I lay down at the feet of Infinite
while the Universe disrobed,
naked and unashamed.
I gazed at the lodestar, beautiful and alien.
Abysmal, inhaling fractals.
Sated,
I look away [into fearful Self].
Lay me, twisted and broken and human.
Alone and
Alien and alone and alone.
I lay still, finding I could do no less
nor more.
We buried posies and
blue plastic trucks in the backyard
of your parents' house.
They don't own it anymore,
and someone built a pool
above the spot.
They're still down there,
though,
decomposing like
all silly childhood things do.
---
I used to walk along the wall
that held the roses in.
"Heel. Toe. Heel. Toe" my father would say.
I fell once, heel after toe,
crashing to the concrete below.
---
I remember
you kissing me on the cheek
with all the innocence of
soap bubbles and naked swimming.
The rain fell down
and churned the ground to mud.
You told me, "Wake up!
Childhood is dead and we must keep on".
I groaned and f
Gravity and Gravity, Still by starlightinhertears, literature
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Gravity and Gravity, Still
You are dolostone
made of compressed pasts,
standing Time.
I break like water over you;
I disintegrate and reshape- fractals,
falling and crashing hard
like Niagra days.
"Why do you think he never smoothed people out?"
Picasso could never stand
to breathe the limits of body,
juxtaposed and holding
the vast darkling plain of spirit.
Nor can I.
Now, I feel jagged, geometric,
poised as fragments of self.
I have not felt Poetry
nor the tyranny of Circumstance
in so long or as so strongly as flying
West.
I attempt to read you, following Egyptian eyes,
but lose the meaning in the immutable direction
of ever falling water
dis
There's no talent in your Missionary,
just
a few letters away from "mercenary"-
from growin' tired of fighting
with your fists
and grocery lists
and getting old
and giving in.
Can you feel your skin
hanging like a tattered sheet from your bones?
You called me a vampire queen,
like I'd sucked you dry
(or sucked at all),
crying out for more lovebites down your spine
(never quite so crooked as mine,
and maybe that was what was wrong. We never made much of a helix.)
My neighbours upstairs screw all day,
or they fight- but yelling is yelling at 3:02 on Tuesday.
Thumping like they're beat poets-
She yells,
"Screw yo
I wrote "Good night, Moon"
while looking over my left shoulder
to see the sun coming up.
(I don't want to put myself in my words;
let them speak for me. They cannot stand
alone- pathetic, broken winged
things.) The apple doesn't fall far.
I've turned to reading poetry
'cause the fiction makes me romantic,
makes me see things that aren't there.
Pinpricks of sunshine keep biting at my legs
(fiction, snorted through a one dollar bill).
You are a pinprick
I am a fool.
And there are hours left 'til the moon sets.
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Thought Process
I'm tired of this desert
with everyone knowing everyone(thing)
and drying up around it,
waking me up in the middle of the night
with he said
she did
and then all of a sudden it's morning again.
How the hell is it so bright
in here? Where did the night time quiet time my time
go?
How do you know that? [Who's talking, please?]
I wake up with cotton balls in my head
and New Mexico invading my mouth.
No amount of water can wash down
the grainy feeling he leaves
in my teeth
when he asks
"Can we be friends?"
I'm glad I was sober to see it.
9 AM; I'm ready to be blurry
so I can't see it anymore.
Where's the flourish?
I am frus